Obsessed

I have been reading a little obsessively about miscarriage rates, reasonings, studies and conclusions. My back hurts which is a sure sign that I've been bent over the computer too much googling fertility crap. Anyway, I mentioned to my ob about the fact that maybe I may have a recurrent problem & he of course said "no your statistic seem normal to me," but I can remember lots of times my period was two weeks late and eventually it showed. I couldn't and still can't shake the feeling that something just isn't right somewhere. I would hate to find out that after all of this time wasted it's a simple matter of implantation and we've been losing pregnancies right and left since day one for NO REASON.

I know that three losses over five years is not enormous, but what worries me is this has happened in every noted pregnancy I've had. What about the ones I didn't note simply because I wasn't aware that I was even pregnant. That's what worries me and keeps me googling.

Seb and I have decided to try naturally until the IVF comes around in January or February. If I get lucky and get pregnant again I think I'll do a few things differently. I'll definitely get a beta immediately, followed by another and another. I'd like to be sure that I have a good strong number that's rising steadily from the get go. I'll also start taking a low dose of aspirin to help with blood flow in case this is all something as simple as a clotting disorder. I'll also ask my doctor to run a check on my progesterone levels. I took progesterone the entire first trimester with Seann and I have to wonder if it sustained the pregnancy. Another thing I've read is to take folic acid early on.