Two negative pregnancy tests and light spotting do not look good. I'm 14dpo today and I don't see myself getting that beta on Tuesday. I still have to do the putain beta because the doctor will want it as "confirmation" since sadly he does not accept underwear as proof of putting this cycle to rest.
This smarts because I freaking let Hope in the door again, damn fool that I am. It was a gashderned IVF for god's sake so how can you blame me. Heck, lock the door you say --that sucker was wide open with a cool breeze blowing through. I got left at the altar in a major way.
I'm officially dreading Tuesday and all contact with any human beings at this point.
'scuze me while I scrub these tire tracks off my back. Life is completely in the gutter this weekend and poor Seb is having to put up with me for three full days, poor slob. He gets to hear my sappy "you should have married someone fertile" speech and I get to hear his "maybe it's me with the problem you never know" speech...again. We really need new speeches.
Oh the infertility banter of the "unexplained" We have no one to blame for our misery and we're stuck in the hamster wheel of modern medicine.
Crap.
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Sorry things are not looking too good right now, but don't give up yet you could still end up with a baby yet. Many people have spotting during implantation, so you never know.If this cycle doesn't work~ hopefully the next one will. I know it's hard (it took us 1 1/2 years to acheive our little girl I know not as long as others, but still a while) but it is so worth it in the end. Anyway, great to have your blog back and hope things start looking up for you and your sweet little family.
Monnie
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