Tomorrow will end the torture

I'm sure to be the first one through the laboratory doors tomorrow morning. Believe me when I say I want this over. This weekend has been hellish.

I google until I'm cross-eyed. I can't help it: ivf+hope+spotting, negative hpt+ivf+late implantation, miracle IVF story+negative hpt and it goes on and on. I'm so ready for this to be over.

I really want to stop the progesterone. I want to stop running to the toilet to see if the spotting is still there. I want to stop focusing on THIS and start focusing on something else.

I've even considered changing the date on my BETA lab prescription.

Did I mention that I want this to be over with because I do.