Tracked down

I am paranoid. While trying repeatedly* to call the nurse hotline at Dr. Dieu's it actually crossed my mind that maybe I'd never get through. Maybe they were all on vacation. Maybe I'd finally get through next Tuesday and hear a message saying they'd moved the entire facility to another location because of a bomb threat from a disgruntled cycler. A lot can run through your mind when you hit redial 32 times in one morning.

I was calling to discuss the last cycle. I had a few threats in mind and I hoped to sound like someone with attitude and a don't f*uck with me tone in my voice but the unfortunate reality is that I'm not very threatening on the phone in French with my laughable American accent, and I have no ammunition in the way of "if you screw this up again I won't come back EVER!" I think I actually would have made them happy if I'd said that. After all there was one less whiny patient to deal with. Good riddance.

When I finally got through I was all out of gumption. I couldn't work up the energy to scream. I was just relieved to hear a human voice on the end of the line. I told the nurse my story, or rather repeated it to her because she remembered me from last month and interrupted me midway to tell me "I remember you" so she wouldn't have to suffer through my sad tale a second time. She tried to ease my worried mind by saying repeatedly "don't worry" but I told her I was worried anyway. I waited while she sighed and grumbled to herself. Then I swear I heard a pencil scratching as she probably scribbled "paranoid, high-maintenance patient!!!" next to my name. And then she sighed again and said "Okay well, I guess we'll do an early controle on day nine"

I sat there on the phone a little befuddled. Hmmm early controle!? Is this a good thing or not. Wow that sounds like they're really on top of this! But after I got off the phone I reflected a little more. Early controle isn't jack.

Early controle is obviously some sort of shut me up compensation of the I don't even know what variety. What will happen on day 9 doesn't concern me much at all. It's days 11-15 that I'm worried about, and specifically day 12, last month's surprise O day. This month it falls on a Sunday when all the clinics and hospitals in France are closed. Saturday, the day before is hard too because most clinics and blood labs close early and are poorly staffed. I've said it before and I'll say it again. Weekend treatment in France is a scary thing.

So I got an early controle. What I really want is hourly blood draws on day 11, 12 and 13. Don't they realize that?

Call me ungrateful. Go ahead. I know, I know. At least I got something...(what I really want is some real pretty embryos and a baby. Is that too much to ask? grrrrrr)

*I've been calling them since last Thursday