A spring in my step

My third beta has gone all the way up to 2953. That's a doubling time of every 30 hours. Anywhere from 24-72 hours is considered normal so I'm really pleased with those numbers. I was so nervous calling the lab again. Each time I call my heart climbs up into my throat my when someone picks up the phone.

Dr. Dieu's nurse should be phoning me tell me that I'm "doing well." For the last beta level I actually forgot that I was supposed to phone them and the nurse called me at 4:30 with a sort of annoyed tone in her voice. I guess they're used to women who don't understand the meaning of the levels. I find it odd how prompt they are with calling women for positive beta news when they are so lax about calling back for things like injection amounts and protocol during treatment. Anyway I guess I will have to call them to make sure I'm still pregnant *rolling eyes*

The next step is to make the appointment for an ultrasound around the 7-9 week mark. I'm at 5 weeks now so it will most likely be in two weeks time, not that far off. That's the next big hurdle to get past. All those looming questions. Is there a sac in there? Is it in the right place? Is the heart beating? Another few weeks of holding my breath until I can find out. I hope it passes event free.

Seb called promptly after I called the lab to ask me for the results of the beta. He's as much of an expert as anyone on HCG levels by now so he was really happy when I told him the number. I was pleased that he could finally let himself enjoy the news a little but I felt a twinge of fear in my gut when he said "so everything's going to be okay this time" I said "well, there's still the ultrasound to get through" and I asked him to hold off telling his parents until we could get past that appointment. I don't know if he'll respect my wishes because I think he's eager to tell them but I hope he can. I just hate that anyone wants to say "Wow! congratulations!! We're so excited for you!!" and his parents will surely be telling us that when I'm not quite ready to hear it.

By the way as soon as I had mentioned that the spotting had stopped on that last post I went to pee and guess what, spot! Since then there's just been a bit of brown blood, you know old blood. All this spotting isn't implantation spotting because we are well past that. And it's fresh so I guess it must be some sort of hemmorrage or further burrowing of the embryo. Who knows what causes bleeding in IVF pregnancies. It's very scary though.

I never got a chance to talk about the FET and transfer day. I'm also eager to get on the camera and do a video. Since my mom has gone I can finally get in front of the camera. With her here it was hard. I'll do that soon so you can see what a woman who has been through hell and back actually looks like.