I'm moving cautiously even though everything so far seems to be okay. My boobs still hurt so that's reassuring and I'm definitely starting to get a little on the tired side. And the bleeding has stopped as of today. Whew! (I repeat that there is NOTHING worse than the bleeding after a positive beta...it's been grueling!)
I'll have another beta on Monday morning to be sure that everything is doubling okay. That will be the last beta before the first ultrasound.
I'm nervous. I really hope we get that far. I have to say that making the ultrasound appointment is scary. Last time I was pregnant I lost the baby the day after I made the appointment. Now I'm kind of creeped out by having to make the call again. I think I may go in and make the appointment in person. That way it's a little different and not like a whole scary deja vu thing. That is IF Monday goes well.*
The odd thing is that Seb is just as cautious as I am about it all. I didn't expect that. When I first told him about the positive beta he just said "oh really, hmm that's good" and then he just went right on with telling me about his day. I said "did you hear me?" and he said "yes but you know we'll have to see." He still hasn't showed much enthusiasm yet. I think he doesn't want to get excited because he knows it will goad me on. He's right. I have a hard time not thinking about the "what ifs" and I'm talking about the good "what ifs" if you know what I mean. For now I'm just trying to take it one day at a time, and if at all possible push it all to the back of my mind and forget about it. That seems to work well and lets face it I've had a lot of practice in that past at doing just that.
*furiously rubbing fertility doll and chanting all the while
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The early days are so hard, aren't they? I know I vacillated from wild euphoria to wild fear. I'm glad the bleeding has stopped and I'll keep everything crossed for a great beta on Monday and a great ultrasound appointment after that.
Thinking positive thoughts for you :)
Yay oh YAY!!! I'm so excited for you!!!! I have missed you for a while and then when I check again, I find that I've missed several updates in a row, with NEWS!!! I'm just so thrilled for you. I hope everything goes perfectly and you get a promising result at the u/s too! Yay!
Yes, I agree that it is very good that the bleeding has stoopped. Implantation, check. I hope you're not gettingtoo anxious. Did they test your other levels and are you appropriately dosed with everything? Hugs and kisses to you.
Hi, it's been awhile! Casey wrote me the good news! So I had to come over and check out your story. Congratulations!
Hi Lucy :) No they actually didn't test my levels even though I asked them too. I'm trying to remain positive that it's all okay.
Hi Carol Ann! You are my FET hero. Where are you these days? I hope everything is going well.
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