This cycle is finally over. I'm kind of sad, after all I was clinging to that thread of maybeness. But I always cling to that, even if Seb and I bd on cycle day 27 I cling to the hope of an accidental pregnancy. I've always wanted to have an accidental pregnancy. In, many other ways though I'm relieved to not be having to worry about a pregnancy just after a miscarriage. I feel like this cycle means we can start fresh. Cycle day one, full of so many possibilities.
My next period falls on December 21st, right at the start of the holiday season. I've decided to call the IVF clinic in Lyon and ask them if I can start my injectables anyway, even though they'll be on a two week break. I'm pretty sure they'll say no. I think it's because the timing is right before the holidays and they'll be afraid I'll have a problem and they'll have to be on call for me. It's worth asking about though. Umm, begging that is.
For the record we are going to bd "like rabbits on viagra" this cycle so maybe we won't even need the clinic. Yeah, right we won't need them. You heard me ...tounge sticking out, rasberries, etc.
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Q: During cycles that you know are probably going to be busts, do you ever feel relief at AFs appearance?
I ask because I am bummed up until the start of AF and then, after having a chance to mourn the wasted cycle (yes, that is really how I think of them), I feel hopeful again--as in Goody! Another chance. . .
Viagra?! Have fun!
Yes exactly; a chance to start all over again because maybe, just maybe, this one will be the one. It's called hope and it's very cruel. Maybe it's easier to give in and become a dark pessimist.
No, not really viagra, but hey if it worked we'd probably try it.
Just read that again and see how I misread the Viagra part. I was wondering if it hapened to be a secret infertility weapon. You see where my mind is these days. LOL.
Here's to hope!
Your right Em *laughing* It did sound like we were going to be taking the viagra. And then you were thinking heck I'll try that!!..*laughing harder*
Whew. Thanks I needed that! Too funny!
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